TEAR. MY. HAIR. OUT.
|This is how my SOUL feels right now. This.|
I think some of my frustration stems from the fact that I'm trying to get it perfect the first time (haha). I'm trying to nail every character, every scene, every line of exposition before I move forward. This is a mistake I make with a lot of manuscripts, unfortunately.
I gave myself a stern lecture about it last night. What I need to do (or at least, what has worked fabulously for me in the past) is write as fast as I can, getting down the bare bones of the story, writing the necessary scenes, capturing the raw emotions as best as I can, sketching out the setting--but not worrying about making it perfect yet. Then I can go back, reread, take stock of what I've done, and add what I need to strengthen and clarify the characters and the story.
This take-off-running-and-don't-look-back strategy is how I manage to write a first draft quickly. It's also how I avoid copious amounts of stress (because that agonizing-over-perfection thing KILLS me) and it's how I keep from stalling out and never finishing the book.
I found this marvelous quote on Twitter today, and it is perfect advice for me right now:
"No thinking - that comes later. You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head. ~Finding Forrester
I just need to write with my heart, I guess. Get all that emotion down first.
But UGH. It is HARD. Hard, I tell you!!
Is anyone else going through first draft frustrations right now? What works for you?